A spark to get the fire going

I've been struggling with this quest for inner discovery for a while now and was at a loss as to where to go and what to do. I changed my mind a thousand times and bounce ideas off of everyone but still nothing. Yesterday, during class we discussed what we were planning to do for this project. I had a question about the medium we were allowed to use because to me it seemed like our lecture would have preferred a physical product. I raised my hand and asked if I would be able a just present pictures. I used the example of make up just to be able to put it into context. I realized that, that could be the solution to my problem.

When I got home I phoned my cousin to ask if he would model for me again. I explained the brief to him and he said yes. He wanted to know what his part would be and I said I was still working on a concept and that I would get back to him. I put the phone down went to room and sat and stared into space for hours.

All of a sudden my mind was alight with ideas. I quickly got a pen and some paper and poured out what I was thinking. An hour and 5 pages later I stopped myself and read what I had wrote. It seemed to center on what my personal views on love, spirituality, creativity and success were. I reworked them to also have a focus on my heritage and it was surprising easy. I fell aspleep that night felling more accoumpliced than i had in a long time.

So to my cousin who is the only person that can make feel completly at peace and ok with myself.
Thank You.

The first time he modeled for me