Throughout this week I've been thinking about the feed back my friends gave me. I received the kind of response that I expected. With creative, fashionable, bossy and sarcastic to name a few. But few responses took me by surprise like Kristen's and Chane's. But Rushana'a response rocked me to the core.
From a young age I've been a self-sufficient person. Teaching myself about the world I inhabit I learnt to deal with my sorrow and hide it from everyone as well as my joy. I learnt how to pour it out into something,leave it there and try and walk away. I made sure that I had a method of dealing with people that stepped over my proverbial line in the sand. Reading this you may think I had this horrific childhood filled with neglect. But honestly most of it was self imposed. I was awkward and shy and easily over looked or just as easily noticed and therefore picked on. A bad combination to have especially when you have a sibling that is the opposite and is seeming always the apple of everyone's eye.
Over ten years later and the same rings true. I am still awkward, shy and now relatively over looked. The method I employed for people who stepped over my proverbial line is that harsh sarcastic snap my friends spoke about. I find my release in dancing and with music that touches my soul. My way of hiding is to wrap myself up in a fantasy world. I've never shared this world with anyone. I never explained to anyone why I find such joy and tranquility in it until recently. I give her a small snippet from my fantasy world and she turned out to be just as enthralled as I was.
Seeing this might have opened my truer self to the world. The fact that she saw through me with such ease while other that have known me for much longer still struggle have me the idea for my garment.
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